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Oh god oh god oh god I can't believe I finally worked this out jesus christ my brain's going to explode.

So I'm studying people and their minds and all that, and while people vary enormously in what they think and feel and desire and all that they're still people. Sarah points out rightly that their biology also differs widely, but again, they're still people.

So a person is a person. On some level we're all basically the same.

And I'm not anything special outside of that. And it's arrogant to think that.

I'm just a person. Like everybody else, and I mean that in the best possible way. Whatever else I call myself, I am still a person.

Not a bastard. A person.

I am not a bastard. I am not evil. My brain's a bit wonky, but I'm still a person. I'm still me.

Oh god. Not a bastard. Not a terrible blight on other people. Just a person.

I need to lie down. It has taken me 17 years to work out that I am not evil. I'm just... a... person.

AAARGH BRAIN CANNOT COPE WITH THIS WTF. I AM GOING TO HURT MY FACE :D